thoughts!.....

[mirrorCRAX]

is there any light at the end of this dark winding tunnel
is there any hope of getting there
is there any hope of knowing where (there) is?
please tell me.... if there's any hope whatsoever
please tell me.... if i'll ever comeout of the dark
if i'll ever taste the sweet flavor of success
if i'll ever walk down the road of self satisfaction
tell me if it'll ever happen...
or at least tell me it shall be ok ...
tell me anything ...
other than its another day ...
in this forsaken place!
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never thought i'd miss you but here i go again
losing myself .... ask'n where and when
got lost in a feeling ...dunno where to begin
where do i go from here
why have all the paths disappeared
faces look the same
and time has lost its name
oh how i long for the moments of victory
the moments i shared with you
now there's a gust of wind pickin up the scraps along the road
now there's an angry dog blockin my way
now there's a word of blame
another player in the game ....
another card that reads misfortune
why the hell is the sky smilin?
this ain't time.... someone pull down the curtains
he may as well pull it on ma mind
the show is over before it began
'n al the promised acts ...all the promised tears.... all the promised laughs
are nothing but history now
keep'em in your mind
don't ever let'em out
....no doubt you can't even think aloud
you're not fuckin allowed
guess your friend is back now .....
keep'n you company so you'd never think of coming out
you want something to relate to ....
relate to that?
recognize that?
the old cell.... the old maze ..... the old self torture devices in your brain
maybe you could relate now .... guess you're still the same...
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[Lamot]

Why can’t you say the word
The hurtful word goodbye
How long can I linger
How much longer will I cry

Have I played the fool
Been a fool long enough
Yes, I do know this,
Yet good-byes are really rough

A word I do not like
I would rather say g’day
Waiting, patiently, lingering
Still on my mind you prey

I know it will be hard
Good-byes are what I fear
Still open without closures
I dry up another tear

One day it will come
Maybe soon that fateful day
I still think its difficult
Good-bye's so hard to say

[mirrorCRAX]

the teacher lined us up in class
'n asked us what we wanna be
i picked up the clown 'n u picked the audience
'n as the class burst out in laughter
'n i burst out in tears
i knew i'd be the joker
through out the years

tears of the clown
once they bring him down
they bring him up again
to try again 'n again

all eyes turn to watch the fool
guess life's like the same 'ol school
once u learn a lesson ,...... you learn it again 'n again
as the wheel keeps spinnin
'n life keeps rollin till the end

[mirrorCRAX]

we're clouds in the sky
feathers in the wind
with crystal dreams that fly
'n knives that cut within
we're masters of the universe
.....yet lost within ourselves
we maynot own everything..........
but never nothin else

never nothin else

tryin to figure out this life in such amusin ways
'n the sea gets filled with tears... that crash along the bay
.... know the truth that lingers on within our eyes
sometimes feels so pretty like a rainbow in the sky

the color you've always loved .... but never ever tried

[mirrorCRAX]

The waltz of colors floating in calm certain waves
Having my own portrait painted everyday
Seeing myself self differently from every angle in every way
There’s no sky above me , no earth beneath me
I’m in the comfortable confinement of those cement walls
The water falls..........
......................... slipping down the sink in a jerky nervous manner
like some goons glad to have finally escaped the slammer
let ma head fall across their way
‘n watched my hair as it dripped off the remains
only to come out from one hole to another
Another day begins in that tight ceramic cell
Am i a different me today ....... will i ever change
I wonder if it’s another typical day
I better get ready now...... it’s a long way
My head weighs me down ......
But i know i’m ok
Another cup of coffee..... a cigarette ‘n an ashtray
A weary body unconsciously swaying to the sound of the ceiling fan
Like it whispered the dance out to my body ...’n asked if it can
Light throws its clearance upon a square in front of me
Nothing specifically highlighted ...didn’t expect that anyway
My body doesn’t care for relocating.... its happy where it stays
Dragged my legs through the hallway.... and they dragged me

[Lamot]

Away in the darkness
No one about
Alone I sit, pondering wonder-

My life’s mistaken
For perfect and kind
How misleading my disguise

Step into my mind plunge into my soul
See how my perfect isn’t perfect or kind
It's shattered and torn
Weary and worn

Words try to express what’s hiding inside
The evil, the hurt, the pain, and the cries
But no one sees this poets plea
Meaningless, my words then flee-

No one to see, not even me
Alone I sit, alone to ponder
Away in the darkness
No one to wonder